~Lessons Learned~

Manifesting is different than wishing........Wishing is simple and overused, we wish our hair was longer, we were taller, we were sleeping while sitting in boring meeting.  Manifestation is our way to really get what we want and need for our higher good.  For our mission our purpose to help us and allow us to experience things we focus on to bring into our existence for growth and joy if done correctly.  Manifestation can and is a great learning tool and if we look at all we have manifested with intent of joy we can learn to manifest nothing but happiness. Manifestation can also represent the old cliche, be careful what you wish for you just might get it, especially when we yearn for something we had, but let go and then manifest it back into our lives.  Everything we currently have in our existence, we manifested.  The pillows on our couch, the trinkets on our mantels, etc.  Have you ever took the time to look around and really see the things that you m...

Judgment comes from our experiences, from the way we view the world, comes from our "beliefs" that we have learned and ultimately hold as our truths.  Wouldn't it be beautiful if we could release the judgment we hold in our heads, especially the judgment we place on ourselves.  I've been traveling down a path that was carefully orchestrated just for me.  I created it and when it became mundane or boring I added more.  Picture a  path in the middle of a beautiful open space.  At the beginning it starts just like the yellow brick road in "The Wizard of Oz" (I relate to the lion.....another blog :) ).  It is beautiful, big, and seems to go on forever.  There are portions of the road when I look further down the road where it seems to vanish (I know now those are the dips in my journey).  I can see a beautiful light, rainbow (I love rainbows.....they are magical) and the beauty from the light helps me continue.  I made sure the light came...

I have found lately that all of the turmoil my mind has caused me was in a desperate attempt to find out my purpose and reason to be a participant in this world.  Was I here to save the whales?  Find a cure for cancer?  Was I important enough to have a purpose......I mean I hear it all the time that everyone has a purpose.  I was finding that I was becoming increasingly anxious in finding out what I was here to do, I mean what if it had eluded me for so long that I have wasted my time doing something I shouldn't have been doing?  I don't want to have to start over again, to have to come back and repeat the pain when I could have just done it this time around. So I have been asking and asking and then so defeated when it doesn't come back quickly.  I know that the answer has been there and given to me over and over.  I was just looking for more or a different answer I guess.   I found that purpose doesn't necessarily come from what you...

I AM.  That is all.  That is all I need for I am = individual consciousness.  Learning and practicing to keep your mind focused on "I AM" will greatly increase your wellness and your attitude to life and the journey that you are traveling.  I use to believe that Karma was like the devil, the pied piper if you will.  The bag of ugliness and negativity waiting to throw shame, guilt and payback.  The only way to wrong your right.  I find my mind shifting, my beliefs held me back, kept me stuck and allowed me to struggle as I walked through life.  My beliefs as much as I wanted them to be cloaked in light and love were ultimately wrapped in fear.  The fear comes from not knowing recogizing loving and beleiving in myself.  The journey I walk through comes from me, from my mind and fear of what if instead of knowing that I AM and that is all.  I am beginning to detach myself from the "world" and it's beliefs and outcomes, as they do not ...

ALL OF MY FAILURES HAVE BEEN SUCCESSES!  Every mistake I make allows me to grow and evolve as long as I recognize and appreciate.   Every person in my life act as a mirror to me and show me if I look deep enough exactly what I am doing in life.   They provide me a glimpse of myself from the outside in.  As I sit and look at my life,  I realize I have lived for so long staring in the mirror and choosing not to see the goodness that those in my life represent and show, but focusing and obsessing on the negative.  This is so telling of what goes on inside of me.... I find myself ugly, weak and so fucking afraid.  I run away from myself, my wants, my desires and what truly makes me happy.  This is evident from the lines that have formed on my face, the sadness and heaviness in my eyes and the constant whirlwind that lives in my chest and stomach.  Yet, when I look past the images in the mirror that are ugly and negative I see love, t...

Have you ever wanted to fit in so badly, you lose yourself completely?   My desire for acceptance started as far back as when I was 7.  I wanted the acceptance from my brother.  I would beg to go fishing and hunting with him and my dad.  My father always let me go, however my brother NEVER embraced the idea and teased me endlessly.  By the time I was in the sixth grade, not only was I striving to get the best grades (just like him), but I was playing every “boy” sport there was to participate in.  I became a tom boy and it was then that I started to lose myself.  In the 7 th grade, I cut my waist length hair to my shoulders and after my father saw it, he wouldn’t speak to me for days.  Little did I know the effect the two most important men in my life would have on me, by the age of 13, neither accepted me and that is when I believed I was not enough.  I have dealt with countless men who have  put me down, threatened, hara...

Are you ready?  Exactly what is it and how do you prepare to move through November 16-December 6.  First I'm not an astrologer however, I know that when Mercury is in Retrograde, things seem to get all screwed up.  Mercury is the fastest planet and during this time it orbits faster than the earth and seems to be going backwards.  You may find that you will experience more doubt, uncertainty, don't get married during this time, don't sign important documents, not even a handshake.  Instead, release.....release negative beliefs, thoughts, patterns, people, etc from your life.  Clean out your closets (literally).  This is a perfect time for self-reflection and relaxing.   Here is a quick overview of what each sign may encounter: Sagittarius-issues with getting where you want to go-this period you may see issues with your mode of transportation.  Have a back up plan Capricorn-you may find yourself struggling with control.  You wi...

Today is a very powerful manifestation day...it is 11/11/11 +(2+0+1+8).   11 is a Master Number, one which defines creation, authentic expression, and quick manifestation.  Have you been noticing this number show up in your life?  On a clock, license plate, lottery ticket?  It shows up to remind you that what you truly want is waiting for you and today is extra special.   Manifesting is more than just wishing on a star and walking away.  Manifesting takes focus and belief.  Right now, energy around us is shifting, in the next couple of months as we prepare for the new year, is an opportune time to focus what you want for the next year and prepare yourself to receive it. Be ready to watch as people in your life exit, which makes room for the new to come in.  As with most things in life, change is hard, scary and uncomfortable for us.  But with this energy shift, change is inevitable, so why not prepare and get what you want with...

This seemed like an appropriate topic, since we are in the middle of the "Day of the Dead".   Who is part of your tribe?  It is usually made up of a group (or a few) people who seem to "get" you, you click regardless of life style, opinions, or views.  The souls that you can go days, months, years without speaking to and once you re-connect, it's as though there was never any time or space between you.   Some, however, are fooled by the terms "best-friend", "family", "PIC", etc.  When I was younger, I had a best friend, the best in the world if you ask me, the two of us were inseparable. My best friend betrayed me in a way that  to  this day I still struggle with if I'm not careful.   I knew for years (really right from the start) that she wasn't there for me, but for herself still I held tight to the fact I had "a person".  As all of you know, when in junior high, high school, this was very important.  I even...

To dream and receive?  I'm watching the amazement of dreams being acknowledged, spoken, believed in and materialize, all while the dreamer ;) stands in awe at what they are able to do in their life with focus and desire in their heart.   I watched today as someone who was lost yesterday received news she never expected!! Congratulations, officer :).  The story is extraordinary as she quickly got out of her way, after hours of intense mirror work from a good friend (wink, wink) and allowed all of it to settle in her brain.  She went to bed, woke up, emailed me at 1:29 a.m. (really?) about a dream she just had.  At 3:44 a.m. I received another email, a blog from my blog (why? I have no idea, I've never received them before) titled YOU CAN HAVE IT ALL (check it out...I wrote it June 2015).  At 6:26 a.m. another from her asking what if...?  In a nutshell her emails asked questions, the blog answered them.  We immediately got in contact with ea...

You are stronger than you know.  You possess qualities withing just by being you.  You can create and manifest anything into your life with just the belief in yourself.  Too often we allow ourselves to label or believe we are only as good as others say we are or how society views things we say or do.  No one defines you, but you.  You have the power but do you have the courage?  Don't be afraid to try something you are interested in due to others.  Do not live your life for someone else.  Live it for you.  Take care of you and your heart.  Believe that you know what is best for you and allow your spirit to lead you.  Rely on your abilities, they will never let you down.  Do not compare yourself or life to others, be happy for them and grateful for what you have.  Learn to live in the moment and make each minute the best yet. I am surrounded by so many unbelievable people that follow their dreams, listen to their intuiti...

What does walking through fear mean to you? Do you do it or do you run?  Running seems like the quickest and at times the safest way to handle it.  Pulling your covers up over your head hoping everything that scares you will go away.  Sad thing is it doesn't, usually it just festers, it keeps tugging at the covers and always patiently awaits for that moment you peek out from your false sense of protection and lets you know it isn't going anywhere until you face it and overcome it.  A very good friend compared fear to an ice cold waterfall.  You can feel the mist of the waterfall, you can hear the water hit the rocks at the bottom, you can taste the crispness of the cold, you can smell the power of the water moving quickly and with purpose, you can see through the fall the beauty that is just on the other side of the water, however the fear of moving through the cold is enough to keep you from walking through the few seconds of being uncomfortable into a whole n...

To my beautiful, wonderful, loving Mother!!!!!!   And to all Mothers out there!!!!

Have you ever had the "why" conversation with yourself?   You know the one where you acknowledge something that pisses you off and instead of sitting in the pissed off mode all day, you decide to "why" yourself out of it?  Let's say you're sitting in traffic and realize you are going to be late for work.  Your breathing starts to get a little more intensified.  You may find your fingers tapping on the steering wheel.  You begin to squint as the foul language is rolling around in your head, while all along watching the minutes tick by.  It's at this point, I like to why myself.   I ask myself why are you mad? Well because the idiot five cars ahead of me is stopped at least two cars behind the car in front of him and if he'd just move up, I could probably shave 30 seconds off how late I'm already going to be.  Then I ask ..... Well why didn't you leave earlier just in case there was an accident?  Well because I was really tired a...

It is amazing how many of us believe in others and their abilities, yet rarely realize or acknowledge our own.  We can easily and effortlessly cheer on our children, our friends, co-workers and family, yet shy away from speaking kindly to ourselves.  It is time that we start the inner dialogue with ourselves and get to know who we really are.  Check in with yourself, find out what you need, what you believe in, what you wish someone would say to you and fill that void with your own voice.  It is time for you to become your biggest cheerleader. I'm part of an awesome class right now with remarkable people, each one different and unique in their own way.  Every one with a story and insight to share on their terms and at their own pace.  All of them have something to learn and even more to teach.  I started out as the teacher and yet over time, the things they have taught me and their ability to make me open my eyes even wider is one of my greatest rew...

Why is it so hard to trust in yourself?  To believe you know what is right for you? For so many they place value of self on others.  They seek approval, validation that what they are doing, thinking, choosing is okay from someone else.  Have you ever done something from the encouragement of another even though you it didn't feel right?  You knew in your gut it wasn't right for you, you could almost see how it was going to turn out, but you did it anyways.  Then sure enough it wasn't what you wanted or didn't have the outcome you hoped for and you chalk it up to your self-worth and inability to get out of life what you want.  When all along it was you allowing someone else to manifest life for you rather than you trusting in yourself that you had the ability all along to control and run your life.  We all do it, listen to someone else's viewpoint rather than trusting ourselves.  Feedback and opinions from others are helpful to us in navigating lif...

I have a friend who is on a spiritual journey right now.  For so long she has fought the demons (her ego) that resides in each of us and failed miserably.........just like most of us do.  Her fear allowed her ego to steer her life and that compounded the negativity and anger, until eventually like most anything she turned inward to find the answer.  I'm grateful she turned to me as well, and together we have experienced some of the most unbelievable soul expansions in the past year.  I have watched her grow as she has me and together we took turns experiencing things so the other could learn.  She left on her journey and thankfully has allowed me to be a part of it through daily emails, texts, calls and her inspiring blog..... campprayyoga.com (check it out)!!! I love you my dear friend.  Keep going as I'm so excited to see where our journey takes us next.

The story of our past that we use to define and identify ourselves.  It is identified with form, whether material, physical or thought.  We allow our thoughts to run rapid in our minds and intensify them with emotion; ultimately sending our egos into the "I" living, instead of "I am".   Once we understand that form is fleeting, illusive and always changing, we understand that our ego will always search for what it feels is missing inside and when we interact or live in ego we live in fear.  The fear increases and fuels our ego allowing us to live in the negative state of mind.  We will use others, the adage of get them before they get me and ultimately find ourselves in gossip, judgment, and labeling of others (from our own self made story) to lift us or make us superior, if even in our own minds.  Whatever you fight, strengthens and what you resist, persists.  We are so busy trying to feed our egos by rising above others that we tend to overloo...

This month is full of abundance.  It is your month to tune in and reap the wonderment of what is being offered.   Signs from the other side are given daily and often...........for me, they have been my ability to smell has been enhanced.  Smells of memories, people, and the unknown come to me daily.  I smell the overwhelming scent of something that brings me back to remembering that certain person, at times it is so big it brings my mind back to years ago and the memory is so vivid that for a short time I am reliving it.  Feathers and coins pop up every where around me.  I see 1111 all the time.  I love the ability to stay alert and look forward to the signs. March is also full of learning and growth, however so many of us are not taking the time to see it, to appreciate it and to feel the gratitude inside.   Watch as you see something in a totally different light, a new perspective, which allows you growth and at times peace from the understan...

February is a few days away.  I'm sure if you look back at the last month, you will find that it was over in a blink of an eye, however, look at all you accomplished or thought of accomplishing (did fear keep you from walking through?).  Or maybe you were instrumental in helping another accomplish something, maybe you learned something huge from somebody else's movement. While this year will be full of self-growth, it will also be full of learning.  If you are a part of another's movement/growth, it is not just about them, it is your opportunity to learn, to see, to expand your awareness for what is coming your way. This next month will start with uneasy growth, learning, expansion.  It will be filled with signs and miracles throughout.  It will end with justice served exactly as you create it.  This is a month for you to prepare your mind, increase your ability to see and understand more and move through all along seeing the signs that tell you that you...