SOUL TRIBE

This seemed like an appropriate topic, since we are in the middle of the "Day of the Dead".  

Who is part of your tribe?  It is usually made up of a group (or a few) people who seem to "get" you, you click regardless of life style, opinions, or views.  The souls that you can go days, months, years without speaking to and once you re-connect, it's as though there was never any time or space between you.  

Some, however, are fooled by the terms "best-friend", "family", "PIC", etc.  When I was younger, I had a best friend, the best in the world if you ask me, the two of us were inseparable. My best friend betrayed me in a way that to this day I still struggle with if I'm not careful.  I knew for years (really right from the start) that she wasn't there for me, but for herself still I held tight to the fact I had "a person".  As all of you know, when in junior high, high school, this was very important.  I even tried to salvage the friendship afterwards...thankfully to no avail...out of sheer fear and panic (this must have been my pathetic stage, whew, thank God I outgrew that haha).  

While I am grateful for the lesson, the "good" times we had together, and most importantly the ability to move away from her, the experience caused me to retreat inside.  For years I found myself wandering in and out of friendships, never getting close or allowing them to stick around for long.  This kind of behavior allowed me to protect myself (or though I thought), but it also provided me with some great insight.  My inner chatter consisted of self-doubt, which gave room to the "bitch" inside to take over.  I am proud and thankful for her as she gave me the power I was looking for, UNTIL, I allowed that bitch to completely take over.  After years of her at the wheel, I found myself searching for more within, which is when the "witch" took over and together we slowly explored my soul.  I found out that I "knew" when someone was part of my tribe immediately and deep down in my gut (these are the people that to this very day are still in my heart...til the day I die).  

I now feel blessed for that time in my life, as it made me more aware of people and their role/part in my journey through life.  It gave me the confidence to know I don't need a ton of friends, but the ones that I do have now, I will never give up.  You know the ones, they live in your heart, you don't just like these people, you love them and when apart from them you can just think of them and feel safe and secure.

To those of you in my tribe, I am forever grateful for your love!!