Great ideas Crystal. Some of my favorite subjects. I will blog on each of these. With different planes...........do you mean different planes we can go to like in astral projection? Can't wait to blog!! Thanks again!!
Have you ever wanted to fit in so badly, you lose yourself completely? My desire for acceptance started as far back as when I was 7. I wanted the acceptance from my brother. I would beg to go fishing and hunting with him and my dad. My father always let me go, however my brother NEVER embraced the idea and teased me endlessly. By the time I was in the sixth grade, not only was I striving to get the best grades (just like him), but I was playing every “boy” sport there was to participate in. I became a tom boy and it was then that I started to lose myself. In the 7 th grade, I cut my waist length hair to my shoulders and after my father saw it, he wouldn’t speak to me for days. Little did I know the effect the two most important men in my life would have on me, by the age of 13, neither accepted me and that is when I believed I was not enough. I have dealt with countless men who have put me down, threatened, hara...
ALL OF MY FAILURES HAVE BEEN SUCCESSES! Every mistake I make allows me to grow and evolve as long as I recognize and appreciate. Every person in my life act as a mirror to me and show me if I look deep enough exactly what I am doing in life. They provide me a glimpse of myself from the outside in. As I sit and look at my life, I realize I have lived for so long staring in the mirror and choosing not to see the goodness that those in my life represent and show, but focusing and obsessing on the negative. This is so telling of what goes on inside of me.... I find myself ugly, weak and so fucking afraid. I run away from myself, my wants, my desires and what truly makes me happy. This is evident from the lines that have formed on my face, the sadness and heaviness in my eyes and the constant whirlwind that lives in my chest and stomach. Yet, when I look past the images in the mirror that are ugly and negative I see love, t...
I have found lately that all of the turmoil my mind has caused me was in a desperate attempt to find out my purpose and reason to be a participant in this world. Was I here to save the whales? Find a cure for cancer? Was I important enough to have a purpose......I mean I hear it all the time that everyone has a purpose. I was finding that I was becoming increasingly anxious in finding out what I was here to do, I mean what if it had eluded me for so long that I have wasted my time doing something I shouldn't have been doing? I don't want to have to start over again, to have to come back and repeat the pain when I could have just done it this time around. So I have been asking and asking and then so defeated when it doesn't come back quickly. I know that the answer has been there and given to me over and over. I was just looking for more or a different answer I guess. I found that purpose doesn't necessarily come from what you...
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Great ideas Crystal. Some of my favorite subjects. I will blog on each of these. With different planes...........do you mean different planes we can go to like in astral projection? Can't wait to blog!! Thanks again!!
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