~Lessons Learned~

Have you ever felt smothered by responsibility?  Do you take a hard look at the responsibility in your life and find that most of the time the reason it is so overwhelming or even there in the first place is your doing?  Well I have these past few weeks, hence the reason I haven't posted a blog in so long.  But what I thought was responsibility I realize is my old friend procrastination here to visit me once again.  My father is coming to stay with me for a few weeks.  I haven't seen him in years.  I've known he was coming for a couple of months and each day I would tell myself I needed to start getting a bedroom ready for him.  I would cuddle up in my chair, grab the remote and promise myself I would start first thing tomorrow.  Tomorrow came and the same promise was made and broken.  I did this until I had two weeks left and wouldn't you know it, instead of preparing an empty room for him, I decided to rearrange the entire house.  What a job!!!!  I know by the time I

Family...............the people in your life you don't get to pick, they just are!  No matter what kind of hell I have put them through or they have pulled me through, I couldn't ask for a better bunch of people to call my family.  There are times when we don't talk for weeks, don't see each other for months and then something, whether it be a holiday, death or party once again we come together and it is as though there hasn't been any time lapse between us.  I am thankful for my two sisters and my brother (but probably not as thankful as they are-----I am THE most special out of the four of us).  When the four of us get together we are usually exchanging smart ass comments, laughing and just enjoying our time together.  The bond comes from growing up together, trying to survive as young kids, teens, and eventually moving away from each other.  But together we form a bond to deal with our parents, life, love and each other.  Oh, how I hated them all, yet all alo

Why are you special?  When you look in the mirror, do you think that is what makes you special?  When you get dressed in your finest clothes, do you think that is what makes you special?  When you drive your fancy car, do you think that makes you special?  When you walk through the doors where you work, do you think that makes you special?  I believe it isn't any of the above!!   What makes you special is your ability to feel.  Your desire to give and your ability to see yourself as a loving individual.  You are special because you are you.  When you drive your cool car, your ego feels special, but when you give of yourself to another; your soul soars beyond the clouds.  The feeling is quite different, one is self centered with a hint of arrogance while the other is freeing and addicting.  When you are you, it makes you elated to watch others happiness.  Whether you are a bystander or a contributor, you can feel their smile, their appreciation settle in your chest.  As you walk