~Lessons Learned~

At times do you even know?  Do you find your beliefs, actions, and thoughts change depending on who or what is in front of you?  Do you have a solid foundation of what you believe to be right and wrong?  With this foundation, do you stand up for these beliefs regardless of who you may offend? I remember in high school, wanting so desperately to fit in that my beliefs and actions changed almost daily.  As I was unsure of who or what I was.  I allowed other's to dictate that for me.  What a very painful part of life.  I felt it was a necessity to try and please everyone, in actuality I was seeking acceptance.  Therefore, I was living the old cliche - if you don't believe in anything you will fall for everything.  I never felt accepted, I never felt fulfilled, I sat and watched others, listened to their stories (which were usually filled with bullshit), my mind changed and that's who I wanted to be. I would start wearing clothes like them, listen to their music, talk like

WHAT IS YOUR TRUTH?  Your own gut felt truth on issues and people in your life?  Not the opinions of your parents, family, friends or what you learned in childhood---BUT YOUR TRUTH?  How often do you use your voice, knowing that your feelings count.  Brutal  honesty is best self-inflicted. Do you know that honesty with yourself (while at times can be painful) is one of the biggest stress relievers in the world.  Because when you lie to yourself YOU WILL lie to others, we like to call these lies, excuses, compassion (I didn't want to hurt feelings), control (hoping to control the outcome of situation) but nonetheless it is a lie and started within.  Give yourself the right to have desires-then give the desires a voice!!   Trust and belief take action not words.  I've said it before and I will say it again, two words that have NO meaning to me I'm sorry!  Actions speak louder than words.  When I have to say I'm sorry, it is time to take a hard look at myself