~Lessons Learned~

I AM.  That is all.  That is all I need for I am = individual consciousness.  Learning and practicing to keep your mind focused on "I AM" will greatly increase your wellness and your attitude to life and the journey that you are traveling.  I use to believe that Karma was like the devil, the pied piper if you will.  The bag of ugliness and negativity waiting to throw shame, guilt and payback.  The only way to wrong your right.  I find my mind shifting, my beliefs held me back, kept me stuck and allowed me to struggle as I walked through life.  My beliefs as much as I wanted them to be cloaked in light and love were ultimately wrapped in fear.  The fear comes from not knowing recogizing loving and beleiving in myself.  The journey I walk through comes from me, from my mind and fear of what if instead of knowing that I AM and that is all.  I am beginning to detach myself from the "world" and it's beliefs and outcomes, as they do not serve my higher good.  They se

ALL OF MY FAILURES HAVE BEEN SUCCESSES!  Every mistake I make allows me to grow and evolve as long as I recognize and appreciate.   Every person in my life act as a mirror to me and show me if I look deep enough exactly what I am doing in life.   They provide me a glimpse of myself from the outside in.  As I sit and look at my life,  I realize I have lived for so long staring in the mirror and choosing not to see the goodness that those in my life represent and show, but focusing and obsessing on the negative.  This is so telling of what goes on inside of me.... I find myself ugly, weak and so fucking afraid.  I run away from myself, my wants, my desires and what truly makes me happy.  This is evident from the lines that have formed on my face, the sadness and heaviness in my eyes and the constant whirlwind that lives in my chest and stomach.  Yet, when I look past the images in the mirror that are ugly and negative I see love, those in my life that support me, believe in me, see th